Its been a year now since ......I am not able to walk well on my feet ! I guess they got tired of caring me, with out paying notice to them for all my 55 years ! they carried me when I took my first steps, they supported me every time I stumbled and fall, carried me once again, to try again ! they carried me when i ran with all my power as a child they never tired of my running ! And when I fall down and hurt them they healed again ! They carried me when I was a erratic teen jumping here and there ,never gave up on me ! They carried me on my thousand mile journey of life and round the world ! they were there always there for me ! well I expected to run jump and walk all the time; while I never given them a thought.
Till one day I fell down the stairs ! My right foot twisted under me but it didn't break ! limping for a Year! ..... It was time to slow down......... I had to slow down ........... every step I took reminds me that I have a foot ! I accepted the pain..... the limitation my poor right foot put on me ! Life started to go in slow careful circles,WOW !! Suddenly I saw...... why I needed to slow down. I took time to look where I am going within and without ! Discovering things I didn't see before.... places .....didn't pay attention to..... hurting corners inside me.....hurting my feet ! where life is taking me? Is that really where I wanted to go ? Many times I stopped to rest ..... to look.. ......to find a new way to go..... short cuts..... and places to rest ! One day I found my self limbing into a temple to meditate ! They told me a long wonderful story about the iron age.....the silver aga..... and the golden age..... how to meditate ...... well... that is what tired hurting feet wanted to do..... sit down ......meditate ! I discovered that was a second nature to me ..... many times I meditated on my feet as a child - BUT.... never took the time to think of it ! I called it day dreaming .... losing my self in the moment..... till someone taped my shoulder Saying........." Hey where did you go a penny for your thoughts" I used to smile to my self and think strange and say are our thought so cheap?I got much irritated when that happened to me ! why can't they leave me for that moment when when I lost time and space ? I was in my space where I find my center and peace !Now my limbing foot took me some where where I can give it a name and say ..... let me be I am meditating ! I started to find why I was hurrying ? what I was hiding from? in my life what was the hurry ? what I am hiding? No wonder my feet wouldn't carry me that far! I was a run away train with no breaks ........I was hitting a wall ! slow down....slow down.... take a breath.... take a rest ...... sit down..... think again....look inside.... look slowly....clear your mind. That is what my feet were telling me. Have heart you are driven by a different force than your own , is it true? what you have been seeing and thinking ? look again....look deep .....go inside......slow down..... slow down ! find your force, chase your dream.....get to know who are you...... be patient ! For the first time I looked at my feet....with all the pain I feel in my heart........ my heart was more hurting than my feet ! I saw for the first time WHY I had to slow down ! feeling grateful for my hurting feet for the first time I realized..... I have feet! WOW what a trip we took together to discover that i have feet ?! I have hands I used every day, how many time ? never counted ! but they are always there when I needed them ! I am grateful for those hands ! I have a heart which been beating all the time in my chest I never thought of it. I have a heart. My eyes been showing me a world I was a stranger to - BUT when I closed them I saw...... the real world I was living in. For this body.......for all the time it supported me..... for all the times it let me feel .... for all the times it has healed .... for all the time I abused it ! I say humbly thank you for being there for me ! let me look after you ! you are perfect, you are beautiful .....your self sufficient and independent from all ! I Honor you to listen to ..... home of my soul in this thousands miles journey ...... for this life journey..... I am in awe.... In gratitude I stand on my hurting feet ....... to say thank you....... for looking after me........ for taking me places I wouldn't find with open eyes..... and healthy foot! Bless you...... YOU are Beautiful. P.S this was written 2008 and happy to say my body didn't let me down, for it has healed much better than it was, and now I can walk on my both feet with out the cruches..... slowly...... BUT independent . -- skoopy